LOLA #19

I'm definitely ill because I spent holding in the cold and when I woke-up, I felt sick. While walking to stage, I asked Chris if he was getting over a cold or something since I'm pretty certain he's the one that got me sick. He said he had gotten a flu shot a few weeks back and might have developed bronchitis later.

The only cool thing to mention was being in the conference room with Terrance Howard and listening to him tell us he first started out as an extra and did it for two years. He knew all about overtime and knew we would be getting some serious amount. He said, "I don't get overtime - but I do get a very generous salary."

I spent the day mulling over the argument I had with Janet last night. I had to cut-off the conversation because it was getting late and I wasn't really looking forward to talking about it when I got wrapped. I honestly wondered if I just wasn't into her when I would look at all the hot chicks around me in holding. I'd never hooked up with hotties like that, but I kind of felt like Greenberg when he said he didn't know who he wanted to date, just that he wanted to date.

Although I didn't want to argue, we ended-up arguing on the phone. It was the same shit and looking back on it, I wonder if I did it just to get her to be sick of me. Was I not into her? Was I not ready for a relationship? Or am I just not very good at it and just need practice? We discussed trust issues and recreation and secrecy and things of that nature. It was frustrating and I let her go because I knew she had to work and I had to get to bed.

I didn't feel good and knew I would be ill. I was confused and hoped a good rest would help me clear my head.

(written 3/16/11)