SUPER BOWL XL

I woke up late since I played poker all morning. Basically, hunger woke me up and I had lunch around 1:30pm. Moms was ready to go to San Manuel again today, but Paulina called to say she would not be able to go. So she stayed home.

The Steelers were 4.5 point favorites against the Seahawks and they covered the spread. I fell asleep watching the SuperBowl both because I was tired and because I really had no interest in the game.

I decided to put on Kieslowski's White. It's a bit confusing and it's good that the DVD has some explanation and commentary about what's going on. Kieslowski puts a lot of symbolic things in the movie and you kind of need to pay attention to how he does it.

Then I called Stephanie since I hadn't heard from her in awhile. She sounded really sad and she explained that she has been sick the past few days and that a lot of things were going on. Then she added that she was sorry because she was using me to get over her boyfriend and that she thinks it would be a good idea to stop seeing each other. She also mentioned that she felt things were moving too fast for her.

I was a bit shocked and didn't really know what to say. I told her that getting over someone by seeing someone else doesn't really work and that I could have told her that. Oddly, I actually wanted to be the one she rebounded with so I could get her back into the swing of things. She's young and I wanted to show her that there's a big world out there. I wanted her to see other people so she could see what works for her and what doesn't.

I asked her if we could still be friends but she didn't think that would work right. She said she needed some time to figure things out. I wonder if there are other things that might be going on that she wasn't comfortable talking to me about. She also said that we both want different things in life. That may be true, but I was curious what she thought I wanted because even I don't know.

I immediately called Charlotte to tell her the news. She thinks that Stephanie's parents might have something to do with it. I didn't even think about that, but it makes so much sense. They are there to protect her and they probably know her almost as much as she knows herself. They know she is probably someone who gets quite attached easily and they know that we are very different people. What's the point of continuing something that may not really lead to anything? Also, Mormons tend to marry early in life, so maybe there's some pressure to find a good man and start creating children.

I'm a little sad because I really enjoyed getting to know Stephanie and having someone to hang out and do things with. Oh well. I tell ya, life is a trip because just a few months ago, I felt like I was on top of the world having hos in different area codes. Now all I've got is Palmala Handerson and my porn collection. Greeeeeaaaaat!